Thursday, May 20, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Acne
HOW DO YOU GET RID OF IT.
I'm getting so frustrated with it! It doesn't go away! No matter how many times I visit the dermatologist, nothing changes! I've changed soaps more times than I can count, actually took some sort of "anti-bacteria" to help prevent build-up under the skin, but nothing works! I've thrown away old make-up, stopped using it even, but no!
It's definitely genetic (my mother said she had the worst break-outs), but if we can freakin' PRINT SKIN, then there MUST be some solution to acne.
Anyway, here's an updated pic of my hair. I had to get it trimmed again about a month ago (it was so lopsided).
So, it still kind of looks lopsided here... I dunno. I think one side of my head is curlier than the other.
I'm getting so frustrated with it! It doesn't go away! No matter how many times I visit the dermatologist, nothing changes! I've changed soaps more times than I can count, actually took some sort of "anti-bacteria" to help prevent build-up under the skin, but nothing works! I've thrown away old make-up, stopped using it even, but no!
It's definitely genetic (my mother said she had the worst break-outs), but if we can freakin' PRINT SKIN, then there MUST be some solution to acne.
Anyway, here's an updated pic of my hair. I had to get it trimmed again about a month ago (it was so lopsided).
So, it still kind of looks lopsided here... I dunno. I think one side of my head is curlier than the other.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
update
*Just to note* -- cut off all hair on 4/09/2010.
Been feeling like my relationship has hit a serious wall. In the time we've lived together, my boyfriend and I grew too comfortable with each other. Further, little annoyances that I would've once been able to brush off have ended up becoming problems that have actually threatened our relationship. I kicked him out the other day after another little fight about him not respecting my wishes while using my laptop, and that ended up into a serious fight the next morning about staying in the relationship.
I told him that I needed space, especially since finals were quickly approaching, and he took that to mean I wanted to break up with him for three weeks (which is absurd).
Our dilemma drove me to start looking up intimacy problems on the internet. Lame, yes. I already know that the internet is not an incredibly viable source of information when it comes to relationships, but I did learn a few things that I didn't know before.
What intimacy means to me is not what intimacy means to my boyfriend, and this has become apparent in the months we've lived together.
To me, intimacy is closeness is heart, then body. I want a boyfriend I can talk to, someone who'll laugh with me, offer support when I need it, really, just be there when I really need someone. I want that person to make me feel beautiful, to forgive my lack of personality, to be able to argue with me peaceably. I want someone who I can also offer those things to. The closer I feel to that person, the more I'd wanna be with that person.
To him, intimacy is closeness in body, then heart -- or at least that's what the internet has been telling me. Physical intimacy alone is not enough, but has a different meaning to men than to women. There's never really been a time where I've been ready for sex and he wasn't, whereas there have been plenty of times where I've refused him. According to the internet, this is like "a slap to the face." And here's the dilemma. The more I refuse him, the less he tries to romance me. And the less he romances me, the more I want to refuse him.
So. How does one go about telling an immature boyfriend about these things? Or rather, do I need to change myself first?
..I think I'll do that.
Been feeling like my relationship has hit a serious wall. In the time we've lived together, my boyfriend and I grew too comfortable with each other. Further, little annoyances that I would've once been able to brush off have ended up becoming problems that have actually threatened our relationship. I kicked him out the other day after another little fight about him not respecting my wishes while using my laptop, and that ended up into a serious fight the next morning about staying in the relationship.
I told him that I needed space, especially since finals were quickly approaching, and he took that to mean I wanted to break up with him for three weeks (which is absurd).
Our dilemma drove me to start looking up intimacy problems on the internet. Lame, yes. I already know that the internet is not an incredibly viable source of information when it comes to relationships, but I did learn a few things that I didn't know before.
What intimacy means to me is not what intimacy means to my boyfriend, and this has become apparent in the months we've lived together.
To me, intimacy is closeness is heart, then body. I want a boyfriend I can talk to, someone who'll laugh with me, offer support when I need it, really, just be there when I really need someone. I want that person to make me feel beautiful, to forgive my lack of personality, to be able to argue with me peaceably. I want someone who I can also offer those things to. The closer I feel to that person, the more I'd wanna be with that person.
To him, intimacy is closeness in body, then heart -- or at least that's what the internet has been telling me. Physical intimacy alone is not enough, but has a different meaning to men than to women. There's never really been a time where I've been ready for sex and he wasn't, whereas there have been plenty of times where I've refused him. According to the internet, this is like "a slap to the face." And here's the dilemma. The more I refuse him, the less he tries to romance me. And the less he romances me, the more I want to refuse him.
So. How does one go about telling an immature boyfriend about these things? Or rather, do I need to change myself first?
..I think I'll do that.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
take me away....from Take-Away
In October, I applied for a server position at the Outback Steakhouse, but was denied because I had no actual serving experience. Instead, I was offered a position as a To-Go employee, at the Outback's curbside take-away with the promise of being promoted to server in no less than 4 months.
Upon reaching month 8 with no sign of any promotion coming my way, I've come to the conclusion that the owner is full of shit and doesn't want to lose his "outstanding take-away team."
So, I have decided to apply as a server one more time, with the stipulation that if he refuses, I hand him my two-week notice.
Guess I should start applying to new jobs...
Upon reaching month 8 with no sign of any promotion coming my way, I've come to the conclusion that the owner is full of shit and doesn't want to lose his "outstanding take-away team."
So, I have decided to apply as a server one more time, with the stipulation that if he refuses, I hand him my two-week notice.
Guess I should start applying to new jobs...
Saturday, March 20, 2010
tokidoki
" '...And yet I think my love more rare than any She belied with false compare.' I am yet your faithful fool. I love you past words."
I want to spoil you. <3
I want to spoil you. <3
Friday, March 5, 2010
fml.
mom's getting a colonoscopy today, following another visit to the hospital. the lining in her stomach has swelled...
...i really hope it's just gas.
i'm kind of freaking out.
...i really hope it's just gas.
i'm kind of freaking out.
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